Looking Forward To The Future

After witnessing what our church has gone through, I am determined to stand strong. To stand strong together with the people and the church going through the greatest persecution. I do not want to look at my hurt and pain anymore. Through this tough time, shouldn't I put on the armour and the sword of the spirit to fight the battle against the devil. Rejoicing in trial and tribulation only only let me grow stronger as a person. In the midst of the hurt and pain that I went through, I should pray for people and begin to be more positive so that people will be encouraged by me just by being around me. I do not need to do anything or say anything. Just a smile will lift the atmosphere of the person up. This is the gift that God has given me. I shouldn't bury my talent but be faithful in what God has given me. I will not dwell in negativity but I will pray to God the changes that need to be done,praying for circumstances to change and praying for the people around me so that they will be strengthened and encouraged. While I do that, the most important thing is that I stay happy and respond positively to circumstances around me no matter what because I know that change start within me and it will flow from the inside out... :)

When I look at the photos in my facebook, it brings a smile on me. I didn't know that it's contagious. I was very cheerful and positive about life at that time. I have lots of friends by my side who love to fellowship with me. I didn't know that I appear good on camera. I almost thought that I was cut up to be a model. All the smile and joy that attract people..At that time, all I want is just to be happy loving God and people..It was all in the past le....

God is in my midst

I will sing of Your great love
Your love is never failing
surpasssing all understanding

You touched me deep inside my heart
You are the source of my comfort
Let Your breath breathe upon me
give me life that substain me

When my world was in darkness
Your light will shine
Open my eyes
And let me see hope

Journey

This is a song dedicated to God demonstrating my feelings.

In my youth I see Your Glory
And Your strength lifted me up
I humbled myself before you

Walking through the journey
There is pain and hurt
But waiting for You to deliver me

Let me find back my first love
Find back my purpose in You
Stir up the flame in me
Let me run with fire
Never stop this journey with You

Your presence in where I want to dwell in
Hiding in Your love and mercy
Let Your Grace be sufficient for me


Jesus, I love You with my true heart....

To Be Happy

The bible says that Happy are those who trust in the Lord. Every creation that exist are formed by God. Even things that we invented are God's common Grace in our life. The food and drink that we survive on are all created by God. The day when we are born into this world are all planned by God. He has His purpose in our life. He wanted us to step into His will. It's only by stepping into His will, will we be happy. Putting our trust in him demonstrate true obedience and reliance to God. Knowing that our own flesh and strength will fail us. Only He can substain us. From this second onward, I make a decision to connect to Your heart and sensitive to Your Spirit. Every WORD You told me will be written down to stir up the faith that is in me. I will embrace love and not jealousy,hatred,hurt and anger. I will depend on God to respond positively to circumstances in my life. I will need to accept myself. I will have to accept the weakness that I have and use my weakness to turn into strength to comfort others. At the end of the day, to be happy is to a God pleaser and not a man pleaser. I know what my heart truly want. I do have the desires to make a difference in the life of people by spreading joy. I will still be a good armourbearer.Let them be consistency in me so that I will be proved to be a true friend that is not just by word but my action. I found out that I need to let loose the things I hold on to strongly in order for God to step into to restore it to the intended purpose. The very purpose that formed part of my visions and dreams. Happy is in the will of God. Live life being happy everyday and smile( I am telling it to myself).

A Grateful And A Thankful Heart

Who could have know that 4 years ago I prayed that I want to have a spiritual brother who would move together and help each other in our visions and dreams and it came to past? Past few years, I have always walked alone through the journey feeling very tired and walked alone with little encouragement. Only a few people are there to encourage and yet they do not know the trials that I went through. 2010 is a year very special for me. I fell into a deep hole again and find it very hard to come out. He put one of my spiritual brother into my life to encourage me, to constantly remind me and to let me get back to the foundation of christianity. We made a pact to move together in our visions and dreams. Indeed God fulfill the desires of my heart. The years of my prayer have finally come to past. I am so thankful that God fulfill my prayer. I should treasure it and not destroy it. I should be thankful for all the things God had done in my life. I really pray that my eyes will be open up. I don't want to be left behind. Now that God has put beside me my spiritual brother who cares for me, I should not just stay at where I am. I want to get out of the deep hole! I will breakthrough. I want to get back my first love for God. I tell myself that by 30 June, I will breakthrough to a greater height. Don't worry bro, I will not disappoint God and you de. One day, we will be very successful and glorify God. our visions and dreams will impact thousands and thousands of people. Thank You, God

Wanting more of You

Lord, You're more than anything
You're more than gold
More than anything

Lord, You're everything to me
I will never let You go
Never ever let You go

Your Love is higher,higher than the heaven
Your Mercy deeper,deeper than the earth
Your Grace is wider, wider than the ocean

I will never let You go
Never ever let You go

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall not fear. For Your rod and Your staff they comfort me. My heart will sing praise and worship you all day long despite of my current situation.